Bisschen viele Viecher, doch man kann den Sommer schon riechen. Wundersame Dinge passieren an solchen Tagen, in den Abendstunden. Wenn die Sonne tief steht.
Morgen zum Beispiel mäh ich dann den Rasen – magisch. Den Abend darauf wisch ich den Keller und den darauf wisch ich den Dachboden. Vielleicht gucken die Nachbarn dann mal wieder freundlicher. Oder die sprühen NERD an meine Tür. Und danach regel ich dann sonst hier alles in den heiligen Hallen.
Ansonsten alles saftig. Das nächste Wochenende dürfte interessant werden.
Und ich werde nun keine Durchhalteparolen hier hin kritzeln – WEIL ES MIR GUT GEHT!
Heute möchte ich mal einen Typen ehren der unglaublich gute Musik macht.
Er verschwindet immer wieder von meinem Schirm, aber an solchen Tagen ist er wieder voll da. Er hat hierzulande auch nicht den Hype den er in Amerika hat. Daher will ich jetzt mal für etwas mehr buzz sorgen.
Die Rede ist von John Mayer. Privat ein Playboy vor dem Herrn und beruflich, also musikalisch, ein Genie.
Er sagt selbst, dass er nur versucht so gut Gitarre zu spielen wie Eric Clapton.
Ich habe Euch nun mal ein paar verfügbare Versionen meiner Lieblingssongs zusammen gesucht und als Goodie geb ich Euch die Lyrics oben drauf. Denn ich finde es nice, die Songs nebenbei mal zu lesen.
Also, viel Spaß Euch!
My stupid Mouth
My stupid mouth
Has got me in trouble
I said too much again
To a date over dinner yesterday
And I could see
She was offended
She said “well anyway…”
Just dying for a subject change
Oh, another social casualty
Score one more for me
How could I forget?
Mama said, “Think before speaking”
No filter in my head
Oh, what’s a boy to do
I guess he better find one soon
We bit our lips
She looked out the window
Rolling tiny balls of napkin paper
I played a quick game of chess with the salt and pepper shaker
And I could see clearly
An indelible line was drawn
Between what was good, what just slipped out and what went wrong
Oh, the way she feels about me has changed
Thanks for playing, try again.
How could I forget?
Mama said, “Think before speaking”
No filter in my head
Oh, what’s a boy to do
I guess he better find one
I’m never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I’d rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh I’m never speaking up again
Starting now
One more thing
Why is it my fault?
So maybe I try too hard
But it’s all because of this desire
Just wanna be liked
Just wanna be funny
Looks like the joke’s on me
So call me “Captain Backfire”
I’m never speaking up again
It only hurts me
I’d rather be a mystery
Than she desert me
Oh, I’m never speaking up again
I’m never speaking up again
I’m never speaking up again
Starting now
Starting now
Neon
When sky blue gets dark enough
To see the colors of the city lights
A trail of ruby red and diamond white
Hits her like a sunrise
She comes and goes and comes and goes
Like no one can
Tonight she’s out to lose herself
And find a high on Peachtree Street
From mixed drinks to techno beats it’s always
Heavy into everything
She comes and goes and comes and goes
Like no one can
She comes and goes and no one knows
She’s slipping through my hands
She’s always buzzing just like
Neon, neon
Neon, neon
Who knows how long, how long, how long
She can go before she burns away
I can’t be her angel now
You know it’s not my place to hold her down
And it’s hard for me to take a stand
When I would take her anyway I can
She comes and goes and comes and goes
Like no one can
She comes and goes and no one knows
She’s slipping through my hands
She’s always buzzing just like
Neon, neon
Neon, neon
Who knows how long, how long, how long
She can go before she burns away
Clarity
I worry, I weigh three times my body
I worry, I throw my fear around
But this morning, there’s a calm I can’t explain
The rock candy’s melted, only diamonds now remain
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
By the time I recognize this moment
This moment will be gone
But I will bend the light, pretend that it somehow lingered on
Well all I got’s
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will pay no mind
When it won’t and it won’t because it can’t
It just can’t
It’s not supposed to
Was there a second of time that I looked around?
Did I sail through or drop my anchor down
Was anything enough to kiss the ground?
And say I’m here now and she’s here now
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
Ooh ooh ooh ooh
So much wasted in the afternoon
So much sacred in the month of June
How bout you
And I will wait to find
If this will last forever
And I will wait to find
That it won’t and it won’t
Because it won’t
And I will waste no time
Worried ’bout no rainy weather
And I will waste no time
Remaining in our lives together
Half of my Heart
I was born in the arms of imaginary friends
free to roam, made a home out of everywhere I’ve been
then you come crashing in, like the realest thing
trying my best to understand all that your love can bring
oh half of my heart’s got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart’s got a right mind to tell you
that I can’t keep loving you (can’t keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart
I was made to believe i’d never love somebody else
I made a plan, stay the man who can only love himself
lonely was the song I sang, ’til the day you came
Showing me another way and all that my love can bring
oh half of my heart’s got a grip on the situation
half of my heart takes time
half of my heart’s got a right mind to tell you
that I can’t keep loving you (can’t keep loving you)
oh, with half of my heart
with half of my heart
your faith is strong
but I can only fall short for so long
Down the road, later on
you will hate that I never gave more to you than half of my heart
but I can’t stop loving you
I can’t stop loving you [x3]
but I can’t stop loving you with half of my…
half of my heart
half of my heart
half of my heart’s got a real good imagination
half of my heart’s got you
half of my heart’s got a right mind to tell you
that half of my heart won’t do
half of my heart is a shotgun wedding to a bride with a paper ring
And half of my heart is the part of a man who’s never truly loved anything.
Shadow Days (aktuelle Single)
Did you know that you could be wrong
And swear you’re right
Some people been known to do it
All their lives
But you find yourself alone
Just like you found yourself before
Like I found myself in pieces
On the hotel floor
Hard times help me see
I’m a good man with a good heart
Had a tough time, got a rough start
But I finally learned to let it go
Now I’m right here, and I’m right now
And I’m hoping, knowing somehow
That my shadow days are over
My shadow days are over now
Well I ain’t no trouble maker
And I never meant her harm
But it doesn’t mean I didn’t make it
Hard to carry on
Well it sucks to be honest (honest)
And it hurts to be real
But it’s nice to make some love
That I can finally feel
Hard times let me be
I’m a good man with a good heart
Had a tough time, got a rough start
But I finally learned to let it go
Now I’m right here, and I’m right now
And I’m hoping, knowing somehow
That my shadow days are over
My shadow days are over now
Love soon
I know you’ve been sworn
I read your complaint
you’re needing someone older
and though I’ve been warned to live day by day
there’s something taking over
did you expect to kiss me one time
while looking at me with the same eyes ever again?
so come on and face it
so come on and face it
it’s time that we say it
you can cross the line whenever you want to
I’m calling it love soon
close your mind and waste some time if you have to
I’m calling it love soon
it’s not about you now
it’s what we are
your mother complains that you need a man
you haven’t mentioned me yet
and all of your friends don’t know who I am
I’ve been your best kept secret
I understand I wasn’t part of the plan
a dollar short, a minute early
but I am your man
so come on and face it
so come on and face it
it’s time that we say it
you can cross the line whenever you want to
I’m calling it love soon
close your mind and waste some time if you have to
I’m calling it love soon
it’s not about you now
it’s what we are
let’s bypass the bullshit and move on because
the minute hand moves faster than you think it does
and by no fault of yours and by no fault of mine
the bottom line is laying in the bed that we’ve been playing in tonight
you can cross the line whenever you want to
I’m calling it love soon
close your mind and waste some time if you have to
I’m calling it love soon
it’s not about you now
it’s what we are
No such Thing
“Welcome to the real world”, she said to me
Condescendingly
Take a seat
Take your life
Plot it out in black and white
Well I never lived the dreams of the prom kings
And the drama queens
I’d like to think the best of me
Is still hiding
Up my sleeve
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something’s better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you’ve got to rise above
So the good boys and girls take the so called right track
Faded white hats
Grabbing credits
Maybe transfers
They read all the books but they can’t find the answers
And all of our parents
They’re getting older
I wonder if they’ve wished for anything better
While in their memories
Tiny tragedies
They love to tell you
Stay inside the lines
But something’s better
On the other side
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you got to rise above
I am invincible
As long as I’m alive
I wanna run through the halls of my high school
I wanna scream at the
Top of my lungs
I just found out there’s no such thing as the real world
Just a lie you’ve got to rise above
I just can’t wait til my 10 year reunion
I’m gonna bust down the double doors
And when I stand on these tables before you
You will know what all this time was for
Back to you
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I tried to forget you
I tried to stay away
But it’s too late
Over you
I’m never over
Over you
Something about you
It’s just the way you move
The way you move me
I’m so good at forgetting
And I quit ever game I play
But forgive me, love
I can’t turn and walk away
Back to you
It always comes around
Back to you
I walk with your shadow
I’m sleeping in my bed
With your silhouette
should have smiled in that picture
If it’s the last that I’ll see of you
It’s the least that you
Could not do
Leave the light on
I’ll never give up on you
Leave the light on
For me too
Back to me
I know that it comes
Back to me
Doesn’t it scare you
Your will is not as strong
As it used to be
Lovesong for no one
City Love
I never liked this apple much
It always seemed too big to touch
I can’t remember how I found
My way before she came around
I tell everyone
I smile just because
I’ve got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can’t remember life before her name
She keeps a toothbrush at my place
As if I had the extra space
She steals my clothes to wear to work
I know – her hairs are on my shirts
I tell everyone
I smile just because
I’ve got a city love
I found it in Lydia
And I can’t remember life before
The day
She called up and came to me
Covered in rain
And dinnertime shadowing
And as her clothes spun, we spooned
And I knew I was through
When I said “I love you”
Friday evening, we’ve been drinking
2 AM, I swear I might propose
but we close the tab
split a cab
and call each other up when we get home
falling asleep to the sound
of sirens
I’ve got a city love
I found it in Lydia
From the battery
To the gallery
It’s the kind of thing you only see
In scented, glossy magazines
And I can’t remember life before her name
Your Body is a wonderland
We got the afternoon
You got this room for two
One thing I’ve left to do
Discover me
Discovering you
One mile to every inch of
Your skin like porcelain
One pair of candy lips and
Your bubblegum tongue
‘Cause if you want love
We’ll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break ‘em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I’ll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Something ’bout the way the hair falls in your face
I love the shape you take when crawling towards the pillowcase
You tell me where to go and
Though I might leave to find it
I’ll never let your head hit the bed
Without my hand behind it
you want love?
We’ll make it
Swimming a deep sea
Of blankets
Take all your big plans
And break ‘em
This is bound to be a while
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I’ll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Damn baby
You frustrate me
I know you’re mine all mine all mine
But you look so good it hurts sometimes
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonder (I’ll use my hands)
Your body Is a wonderland
Your body is a wonderland
Why Georgia
I am driving up 85 in the
Kind of morning that lasts all afternoon
just stuck inside the gloom
4 more exits to my apartment but
I am tempted to keep the car in drive
And leave it all behind
Cause I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?
I rent a room and I fill the spaces with
Wood in places to make it feel like home
But all I feel’s alone
It might be a quarter life crisis
Or just the stirring in my soul
Either way I wonder sometimes
About the outcome
Of a still verdictless life
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?
So what, so I’ve got a smile on
But it’s hiding the quiet superstitions in my head
Don’t believe me
When I say I’ve got it down
Everybody is just a stranger but
That’s the danger in going my own way
I guess it’s the price I have to pay
Still “everything happens for a reason”
Is no reason not to ask myself
If I am living it right
Am I living it right?
Am I living it right?
Why Georgia, why?
Come back to bed
Still is the life
Of your room
When you’re not inside
And all of your things
Tell the sweetest story line
Your tears on these sheets
And your footsteps are down the hall
Tell me what I did
I can’t find where the moment went wrong at all
You can be mad in the morning
I’ll take back what I said
Just don’t leave me alone here
It’s cold, baby
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
What will this fix
You know you’re not a quick forgive
And I won’t sleep through this
I survive on the breath
You are finished with
You can be mad in the morning
I’ll take back what I said
Just don’t leave me alone here
It’s cold baby
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Come on come back to bed
Come back to bed…
[guitar solo]
You can be mad in the morning
Or the afternoon instead
But don’t leave me
98 and 6 degrees of separation
From you baby
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Come back to bed
Don’t hold your love over my head
Don’t hold your love over my head
Don’t hold your love over my head
Don’t hold your love one more time around baby
Don’t hold your love over my head
Don’t hold your love over my head yeah
Don’t hold your love over my head
Don’t hold your love over my head
Come on come back to bed
Bigger than my body
This is a call to the color-blind
This is an IOU
I’m stranded behind a horizon line
Tied up in something true
Yes, I’m grounded
Got my wings clipped
I’m surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I’ll circle
While I’m waiting
For my fuse to dry
Someday I’ll fly
Someday I’ll soar
Someday I’ll be so damn much more
Cause I’m bigger than my body gives me credit for
Why is it not my time?
What is there more to learn?
Shed this skin I’ve been tripping in
Never to quite return
Yes, I’m grounded
Got my wings clipped
I’m surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I’ll circle
While I’m waiting
For my fuse to dry
Someday I’ll fly
Someday I’ll soar
Someday I’ll be so damn much more
Cause I’m bigger than my body gives me credit for
Cause I’m bigger than my body now
Maybe I’ll tangle in the power lines
And it might be over in a second’s time
But I’ll gladly go down in a flame
If the flame’s what it takes to remember my name
Yes, I’m grounded
Got my wings clipped
I’m surrounded (by)
All this pavement
Guess I’ll circle
While I’m waiting
For my fuse to dry
For my fuse to dry
Someday I’ll fly
Someday I’ll soar
Someday I’ll be so damn much more
Cause I’m bigger than my body
I’m bigger than my body
I’m bigger than my body now
Say
Take all of your wasted honor
Every little past frustration
Take all of your so-called problems,
Better put ‘em in quotations
Say what you need to say [x8]
Walking like a one man army
Fighting with the shadows in your head
Living out the same old moment
Knowing you’d be better off instead,
If you could only . . .
Say what you need to say [x8]
Have no fear for giving in
Have no fear for giving over
You’d better know that in the end
Its better to say too much
Then never say what you need to say again
Even if your hands are shaking
And your faith is broken
Even as the eyes are closing
Do it with a heart wide open
Say what you need to say [x24]
Stop this train
No I’m not color blind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind but…
I just can’t sleep on this tonight
Stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
But honestly won’t someone stop this train
Don’t know how else to say it, don’t want to see my parents go
One generation’s length away
From fighting life out on my own
Stop this train
I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take the speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t but honestly won’t someone stop this train
So scared of getting older
I’m only good at being young
So I play the numbers game to find away to say that life has just begun
Had a talk with my old man
Said help me understand
He said turn 68, you’ll renegotiate
Don’t stop this train
Don’t for a minute change the place you’re in
Don’t think I couldn’t ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we’ll never stop this train
See once in a while when it’s good
It’ll feel like it should
And they’re all still around
And you’re still safe and sound
And you don’t miss a thing
’til you cry when you’re driving away in the dark.
Singing stop this train I want to get off and go home again
I can’t take this speed it’s moving in
I know I can’t
Cause now I see I’ll never stop this train
(think I got ‘em now)
Gravity
Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh I’ll never know what makes this man
With all the love that his heart can stand
Dream of ways to throw it all away
Oh Gravity is working against me
And gravity wants to bring me down
Oh twice as much ain’t twice as good
And can’t sustain like a one half could
It’s wanting more
That’s gonna send me to my knees
[repeat]
Oh gravity, stay the hell away from me
And gravity has taken better men than me (now how can that be?)
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
Just keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
C’mon keep me where the light is
Oh… where the light is! [repeat]
I don’t trust myself (with loving you)
No I’m not the man I used to be lately
See you met me at an interesting time
If my past is any sign of your future
You should be warned before I let you inside
Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don’t trust myself with loving you
I will beg my way into your garden
I will break my way out when it rains
Just to get back to the place where I started
So I can want you back all over again
Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don’t trust myself with loving you
Who do you love?
Girl I see through, through your love
Who do you love me or the thought of me? me or the thought of me?
Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever will get you through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don’t trust myself with loving you
Hold on to whatever you find baby
Hold on to whatever gets you through through
Hold on to whatever you find baby
I don’t trust myself with loving you
I don’t trust myself with loving you
I don’t trust myself with loving you
I don’t trust myself with loving you
Who says (Tokyo Edition)
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Turn off the lights and the telephone
Me in my house alone
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Who says I can’t be free?
From all of the things that I used to be
Re-write my history
Who says I can’t be free?
It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long night in Baton Rouge
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember you
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Call up a girl that I used to know
Fake love for an hour or so
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Who says I can’t take time?
Meet all the girls on the county line
Wait on fate to send a sign
Who says I can’t take time?
It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long night in Austin too
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember you
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Plan a trip to Japan alone
Doesn’t matter if I even go
Who says I can’t get stoned?
Mmhmm
It’s been a long night in New York City
It’s been a long time since 22
I don’t remember you looking any better
But then again I don’t remember, don’t remember you
Assassin
I work in the dead of night
When the roads are quiet, no one is around
To track my moves, racing the yellow lights
To find the gate is open, she’s waiting in the room
I just step on through
You get in, you get done and then you get gone
You never leave a trace, or show your face, you get gone
Should’ve turned around and left before the sun came up again
But the sun came up again
Enter the morning light
To find the day is burning the curtains and the wine
In a little white room
Though I’m not alone, her head is heavy on me
She’s sleeping like a child
What could I do
You get in, you get done and then you get gone
You never leave a trace, or show your face, you get gone
Should’ve turned around and left before the sun came up again
But the sun came up again
I was a killer, was the best they’d ever seen
I’d steal your heart before you ever heard a thing
I’m an assassin and I had a job to do
Little did I know that girl was an assassin too
Suddenly I’m in over my head and I can hardly breathe
Suddenly I’m floating over her bed and I feel everything
Suddenly I know exactly what I did, but I can not move a thing
And suddenly I know exactly what I’ve done
And what it’s gonna mean to me, mean to me
I’m gone
I was a killer, was the best they’d ever seen
I’d steal your heart before you ever heard a thing
I’m an assassin and I had a job to do
Little did I know that girl was an assassin too
She’s an assassin
She’s an assassin
She’s an assassin
She’s an assassin and she had a job to do
Crossroads
I went down to the crossroads, fell down on my knees
I went down to the crossroads, fell down on my knees
Asked the lord for mercy, said ‘help me if you please’
I went down to the crossroads, tried to flag a ride
I went down to the crossroads, tried to flag a ride
No one seemed to know me, everybody passed me by
You can run, You can run, tell my friend Willy Brown
You can run, you can run, tell my friend Willy Brown
That I’m standing at the crossroads, I believe I’m sinking down
I’m on fire
Hey little girl is your daddy home
did he go and leave you all alone
I got a bad desire
Oh oh oh I’m on fire
Tell me now baby is he good to you
and can he do to you the things that I do oh no
I can take you higher
Oh oh oh I’m on fire
Sometimes it’s like someone took a knife baby edgy and dull
and cut a six-inch valley through the middle of my skull
At night I wake up with the sheets soaking wet
and a freight train running through the middle of my head
only you can cool my desire
Oh oh oh I’m on fire
Oh oh oh I’m on fire
Oh oh oh I’m on fire
Fast 3 Jahre hatte sie um mich gekämpft. Ich war grade aus einer Beziehung mit einer deutlich jüngeren katapultiert worden und habe mich lange dagegen gewehrt wieder eine deutlich jüngere in mein Leben zu lassen.
Weil ich weiß wie es ablaufen wird. Irgendwann fangen die Clubnächte mit den Freundinnen an und plötzlich ist das was man sich aufgebaut hat nicht mal mehr so viel Wert wie eine Bild von der letzten Woche. Es ist das Judith Harper Prinzip: Es ist solange alles cool, bis irgendetwas sie dazu bringt zu schreien: “Du hast mir die Jugend geraubt”!!!
Ähm, ja eventuell. Aber ich habe auch nicht 3 Jahre lang darum gebettelt.
Aber bei Ihr sollte das anders werden. Wir haben, bevor wir uns in diese Liebe gerettet haben, darüber gesprochen.
Die Argumente die dabei aufkamen klangen plausibel für mich. Doch nun am Ende ist es das gleiche System wie um bei Ihr zu mehr zu kommen als zu einem Abschiedskuss.
Sie hat nie einen Hehl daraus gemacht, dass sie nur mit Leuten intim wird mit denen sie auch eine Beziehung führt. Um es also kurz machen zu können, hätte man nur was über Liebe und Beziehung erzählen müssen und wäre an den Honigtopf gelangt. Was davor scheinbar einige erkannt und angewandt haben.
Bei mir war es dagegen andersrum – ich ließ jeden von meinem Nektar naschen. Aber um an mich zu kommen musste man sich als geeignet heraus stellen.
Und hier kommen wir zu dem Problem.
Jetzt am Ende, nachdem wir eine Wohnung eingerichtet und uns ein Leben aufgebaut hatten, hätte ich niemals gedacht, dass die Frau die jetzt Gift und Galle spuckt (wobei ich nach wie vor keinen Plan hab was ich angestellt haben könnte) jemals so sein könnte.
Ich mein, ich will es auch gar nicht wissen. Alles was zwischen uns passiert sein könnte, hätte man auch mit ein paar Worten bereinigen können. Doch diese Worte möchte ich jetzt nicht mehr hören. Es ist zu spät.
Wer hier wochenlang nur noch miese Laune schiebt und bei jedem Versuch zu erfahren was Ihr auf der Seele liegt, dicht macht.
Wer in einer Tour nur noch an dem was man macht rumkritisiert, ohne erkennbarem Grund.
Wer mir mehrfach sagt, dass es bei den Eltern einfacher und ruhiger ist.
Wer jeden Abend pünktlich zwischen 20 und 21 Uhr auf der Couch einschläft und an Wochenenden entweder mit der Mom shoppen oder von 13 Uhr an für den Club fertig macht und mir vorwirft zu wenig Zeit für sie zu haben.
Und wer sich dann noch selbst bemitleidet nichts für das eigene Leben zu schaffen.
Obwohl nie jemand sie hätte zurück gehalten können.
Und wer beim “Sachen abholen” kein Hallo hinbekommt und seinen Daddy an der Wohnungstür postiert, wer durch meine Wohnung rennt und im Sprint seine Sachen zusammen sucht und als Abschied hört man nur eine Wohnungstür zufliegen.
Wer plötzlich so wird brauch mir nicht den Grund dafür nennen. Alles was ich wissen muss ist damit erklärt.
Ich habe einen Fehler gemacht. Nicht in der Beziehung, sondern mit der Beziehung.
Ich war töricht mich bequatschen zu lassen und so etwas wie Liebe und Vertrauen generiert zu haben.
Am Ende bleibt einem nur diese Gewissheit und die Vorfreude darauf wenn das nächste mal eine Frau auftaucht die es Wert wäre eingelassen zu werden. Doch es dann wieder ein wenig schwerer hat.
Diese Welt ist Scheiße und es spielen nur noch wenige fair. Da ich dieses Fair-Play nach wie vor gut heiße werde ich mich damit abfinden müssen, noch öfter auf die Schnauze zu fallen. Aber das hab ich nicht zu Verantworten. Sondern die, die nicht fair spielen und selbst in einer Lebensabschnittspartnerschaft (geiles Wort) nur an Ihren Arsch denken.
Was mich jedoch richtig aufregt, ist das wir mittlerweile Nahrungsmittel mit Ampeln ausstatten um zu sehen, ob Kohlenhydrate drin sind. Wir können aber keiner Ex ein Tattoo verpassen “Mogelpackung”. Ich mein, was ist denn heftiger? Wenn ich in ner Low-Carb-Diät doch mal etwas esse was Kohlenhydrate enthält oder wenn ich nach Jahren plötzlich wieder so aus der Erdlaufbahn geschossen werde, dass ich zwei Wochen nicht richtig esse und wieder alleine mit meinem Kopf klar kommen muss? Ich mache mir nämlich Sorgen um den nächsten Typen dem erzählt wird: Als ich Dich getroffen habe, habe ich mich von Ihm getrennt. Der wird dann sicher auch zu blind sein um keinen Vorteil, sondern einen Nachteil zu erkennen. Denn was heißt das denn? Wir ziehen los und erzählen Leuten die uns scheinbar was bedeuten: Ich liebe Dich, ich bin bei Dir, ich unterstütze Dich und bleibe bei Dir. Dann kommt der neue, dann wird so ausgezogen wie beschrieben und der neue freut sich. Doch der Idiot checked einfach nicht: “Du Vollpfosten, wenn ihr das nächste mal ein Furz quer sitzt und sie nicht die Eier hat dir zu sagen was Phase ist, dann sucht die sich die nächste Schwärmerei, verlässt Dich und erzählt dem: Ich habe Ihn wegen Dir verlassen”. Und das geht scheinbar immer so weiter.
Und dann schreibt man das auf facebook und alle anderen kommen an und trösten einen?!?
WAAAASSS?!?
Ansonsten kein Problem.
Wahnsinnige kann man nunmal nicht so gut halten wie Hamster.
Die Lage ist gut, wie wir aus dem Lagebericht entnehmen können.
Ich hab den besten Co-Piloten den man sich aus Lehm hätte kneten können.
Meine Wohnung ist nun deutlich zu groß für mich. Und dazu deutlich sauberer, denn wenn man sich selbst drum kümmert ist man schneller fertig, als wenn man am Zustand rumjammert.
Ich habe genug Zeit für meine Arbeit, für meine nebenberufliche Arbeit, fürs bloggen und hoffentlich bald auch fürs Podcasten und für die Lady’s
Bis dahin muss ich mich jedoch erstmal wieder an ein Leben allein gewöhnen. Sonst wäre es unfair.
Ich wünsche Euch ein schönes Wochenende. Und passt verdammt nochmal auf Euren Arsch auf!
In den letzten Stunden haben unsere verbündeten Reiter einen Lagebericht zum Jagdgebiet erstellt.
Demnach ist die Lage hervorragend und Beute zahlreich vorhanden.
Dieser Sommer scheint heiß zu werden. Dennoch befinde ich mich in einer Phase der Umorientierung. Bis zum Abschluss dieses Prozesses könnte eine zu hastige Jagd nicht nur töricht sein, sondern die derzeitige Lage erheblich verschlimmern.
Und somit verharre ich mich in den Barracken der heiligen Hallen und fröne dem was mein Gehirn mir vorgibt. Was mittlerweile abstrakte Formen annimmt. Mittlerweile hat sich meine Lieblingsbeschäftigung, das Tastaturenmalträtieren, gewandelt und ich habe in den letzten Stunden die komplette Wohnung gesaugt, geputzt, gewischt und von Ballast befreit.
Nun bügle ich die anfallende Wäsche und schwelge in Erinnerungen an vergangene Jagderfolge. Wobei mir die ausgesandten Reiter dabei von zwei sehr wichtigen und ehrsamen Erfolgen berichtet haben, die Ihnen auf Ihrem Weg begegnet sind.
Es wird Arbeit bedeuten diese Wunden zu schlecken und den bekannten Tanz erneut zu begehen.
Nur ein Narr klammert sich an die Vergangenheit oder nimmt eigene Fehler zu mehr als zu einer Erfahrung. Große Jäger befinden sich in ständigem autodidaktischen Prozess und fokussieren sich lediglich auf die aufkommende Jagdsaison. Und das Ende kann bekanntlich sehr lange Zeit benötigen.
Es wird jedoch eine sehr interessante Zeit werden und ich habe natürlich mehr Zeit um zu schreiben.
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